wild & free

One of my goals/desires when I decided to start my own business was not only to help my clients throw that perfect event they've been dreaming up, but also to inspire the community of creatives that I'm now a part of. To shed light on the importance of vulnerability, the danger of comparison, and to create a safe place for women to share their life lessons and revelations. 

I began reading this book last month, Wild & Free, with two friends and it has been such a breath of fresh air. I encourage everyone reading this right now to click and order it! (no, I'm not affiliated with them but I'm that crazy about the book hehe). I'm only half way through right now but it's already challenged me so much that it's made me tackle some issues I struggled with in the past. This has led to such an increase of confidence and joy in my life. 

Being the lover of writing that I am, I decided to publish my experience on Medium earlier this week. If you're interested to read further, simply click here.

Little teaser for those curious: 

…I didn’t get a job because the manager said I was “too much.” How that statement has impacted me 4 years later.

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Once we cut off those strings of expectation, pride, and insecurity we stop allowing others to define us. That’s when living can actually begin.

<3

#beautyprivilege

"Beauty privilege is very real. None of us are imagining it, and if we aren’t born genetic lottery winners, our only option is to compensate with style, grace, and charm. Of course, none of that shit comes cheap. That’s kind of the whole point. It’s all meant to be aspirational and exclusionary. We’re supposed to feel depressed by our skin, agitated by our bodies, and anxious about our invisibility. That’s the insidious subtlety of social control. The worst part is that we know in our rational minds that it’s all bullshit, and yet we’re still plagued with self-loathing when we can’t live up to unattainable beauty standards. No matter how much self-acceptance we achieve, we can still look in the mirror and instantly catalog all the things about ourselves that we don’t think measure up. It’s maddening. It makes us feel like hypocrites even though it’s not our hypocrisy." - The Coquette

#goodbye2014

Oh how I love the holidays. I love them so much that I genuinely feel sad when the year is about to end because of how fast they've flown by. My family is the same way and Thanksgiving & Christmas especially are two of our favorite nights of the year, so this year was amazing to say the least. We've had the fireplace going all month long and this year the house was decked out in Christmas decor (some of which I helped design/decorate myself this time around!). Our home has been filled with the smells of freshly baked cake and pine cones -- I'm so sad to see it all coming to an end in just three days. But with that comes the start of a new year. One that I couldn't be more excited about. It's funny because I feel like in only a year I have changed so much in such tiny and huge ways. One of which is my reaction to change. I couldn't be more excited about what is to come this next year. This was such a defining year for me — full of so much growth in such different areas of my life. Personally, professionally, spiritually, and emotionally. I have so much excitement and passion going into 2015. There were certain goals I had going into this last year and I met almost every single one. I was able to travel more than I ever have before -- some trips were only for a weekend but the people I spent time time and those memories will remain with me for a lifetime. I also was able to attain a dream I had for years which was to move to SF. I promised myself I would only do it once I had a secure position and that door finally opened December of last year and come this February it will have been officially a year of me being an SF resident. I cannot believe it. In addition to that, I was just offered a new position at work which I will transition into right after 1/1. I am so thrilled about this change and it could not have come at a more opportune time. I can't wait to make even more connections this coming year and see what life in SF brings me.

My hope for 2015 is even more growth in all of these areas. In regards to relationships, I'm working on actively seeking out purposeful and fruitful people who will lift me up. Friends who consistently have one another's best interest at heart and aren't afraid to be raw with one another, even if it hurts. I don't want to be afraid of cutting out toxic relationships. I don't want to be feel obligated to go somewhere out of "FOMO", and I don't want to have to feel "sorry" for saying no to anyone/ not going to something. There is absolutely no need for you to explain yourself or prove yourself to anyone. I want this year to be spent productively and in a way where I am constantly being sharpened. It's honestly SO refreshing.

I'm looking to travel even more. I'm hoping to save up for an "eat, pray, love" excursion of my own and do some soul searching. I want to visit all the US cities I've had my eye on. And even if that means only 1-2 places this year, I think that's perfect because at least I'm starting somewhere. I don't want to get complacent or comfortable.

I want to blog more. I know we always say that and even for me, it was an epic fail keeping up with the blog at the end of this year but I don't want to apologize about it. Instead, I want to simply DO. I never want to stop doing. I feel like at times as a blogger we can become so consumed with what others are thinking or what they expect the blog to "be." I'm not going to remain fearful of that. I'm confident in this being a true peek into my life -- not simply a fashion blog or TV blog, but a hodge podge of everything. Why not? I want this to be my creative space where I can share a bit of myself that not everyone gets to always see through a unique medium. Through writing, through photography, through art.

I wish you all the very, very best year to come. Whoever you are reading this at this very moment. I happened to just go through my "Year in Review" on Wordpress and I saw that I had over 1,000 visitors from over 20 countries this year. That BLOWS my MIND. Whether someone stumbled upon this by accident or whether you check this out often, I thank you! Thank you for going on this journey with me and keeping up with my life:) It's truly humbling.

I couldn't be more excited about this upcoming year and the projects I have dreamed up. Let's get to work!

#justforfun

Today my cousin & I got super spontaneous and decided mid-day to head off for a beach day together. It was crazy that in mid-January, the weather was absolutely amazing! The sun was out, people were surfing on the waves, and we enjoyed sitting back, eating lunch together, overlooking the ocean. It was such a fun day and just allowed me to once again realize the power in spontaneity and being adventurous. Especially for us Californians, the beach is our backyard, yet I visit so seldom! The character of Capitola is absolutely precious -- every nook and cranny makes you feel like you're walking through a small European city. All mom& pop shops and natives! Of course my cousin is quite the up and coming photographer, so I had a ton of fun being her model for the day ;) All photo cred goes to : Sanna Nour Photography! I'm loving the new perspective I've been living out the past few weeks. I'm doing all I can to better myself, be my own best friend, and just figure things out. It's tough in your early 20's (who knew!?), but I'm getting the hang of it and I'm so motivated with the growth that God is doing in me. In every aspect there's a new lesson He's been revealing to me and it's finally now (after years) that I'm looking to grasp these lessons with a grain of salt & humility. Change is good.... the best is yet to come!